Pieces

Sum 41

I tried to be perfect
but nothing was worth it.
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy
but no one believes me.
I meant all the things I said.
If you’d believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I’m trying to let you know
that I’m better off on my own.

This place is so empty.
My thoughts are so tempting.
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy
but nothing can save me
but it’s the only thing that I have.

If you’d believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I’m trying to let you know
that I’m better off on my own.

I tried to be perfect,
it just wasn’t worth it.
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It’s hard to believe me.
It never gets easy.
I guess I knew that all along.
If you’d believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I’m trying to let you know
that I’m better off on my own.

“一切顺利！”18：30 ，邵老师在我离开理学院学办的时候对我说。

“谢谢……”我苦笑。然后出了门，路上唏嘘不已，一个人唏嘘。

难道天真要降大任于朕么，反正基本上心志、筋骨、体肤都他妈折腾的不行了已经。

“老麻烦了。”当初pANdA这么跟我一说，我这么一听。今天，或者说是这些天，算是领教了。

也许我这个跟pANdA的比还困难了许多，我感觉。

恶心的嘴脸。作呕的语气。漠然的态度。繁琐的体制。混乱的管理。

“回来你可以开个留学咨询中心了。” 姐语，“嘛事都让你赶上了。”

一路磕磕绊绊，晃晃悠悠。

中午满鼻子灰的站在天津市街头的时候，真是感觉那么的无助，说实话，想哭。

不过瞬间，还是稳定下来了，还是平静下来了。

既然都和我对着来，那我只能自己扛了，真是，啥时候都不要想去依赖谁谁。

要是老天爷都和我作对，那么对不起，我只能逆天。

因为我一个男人，我有自己的梦。

今天我真坚强，自豪。

晚安。